Sometimes it amazes me how much I can sleep! I get eight to ten hours of sleep at night, and during the day I can barely stay awake at times! This gets old. My spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. I imagine all the things I would like to get done, but I have NO energy to accomplish the tasks at hand.
This morning, I made some scrambled eggs (sitting in a chair by the stove) and then while wiping off the counter top, broke into a sweat, and was overcome with exhaustion. I shall find it hard not to appreciate doing the simplest of jobs without becoming exhausted when I get to the other side of this whole process.
It's just frustrating to have all this "free time" and not be able to do more of the things I enjoy. The other morning, I awoke after ten hours of sleep, and was so relieved I did not have to go to work, because I was still tired and sore. I would never be able to withstand the rigors of driving the bus and dealing with the kids, even IF I had an immune system that could withstand all the exposure to their illnesses.
This last round of chemo has left me more weak, more tired, and I have had to take more of my nausea medication to stave off the "urpy" feeling in my gut. Next chemo is on Halloween. It will be a different kind of drug, and the oncology nurse said it is generally milder than what I have been getting...I am keeping my fingers crossed.
Keep up your prayers and good thoughts for me, please
Love to ALL!
Mary
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